What does it take to choose the greatness of you?

Be in Allowance.

A key to choosing the greatness of you is to be in allowance of yourself. To allow yourself to be at ease with your self. All of you. The good, the bad, and the ugly of you.

A first step is: Be willing to look at all of those aspects of you with loving allowance (no judgment).

First of all. You really are an infinite divine being. A light and expansive all-knowing being.

Secondly, as you well know, each of us has created a finite ego personality that we have bought into as real and then present to the world. We all are plagued by moods, emotions, and endless thoughts. We can be vindictive, ruthless, and cruel. We can destroy and kill -- the so-called dark or shadow side.

Which is hardest for you to believe?

1. That you are an infinite being?
2. That you really do have a so-called dark side?
3. Or, if you're like me, I skirted around the notion that. . . .
both are true.

Somewhere in my being, know I really am an infinite being.

Something in deep in my awareness knew there was a place of peace and calm and all knowing in me and around me. Both coming from me and to me from the universe. Whenever I said Namaste, to another, it felt right. Only I didn't fully believe it. If you aren't familiar with namaste, that's acknowledging and honoring the greatness in both of us

I even had several expansive events that showed me so. For example, one time I was counseling a client and we both experienced something we felt was remarkable.

My office filled with brilliant whiteness. I was aware of not being in my body. Actually I was not a body at all. My awareness merged with the other woman. I thought, "Wow! This is fantastic." and it all disappeared as quickly as it came on.

After the session a co-worker approached and asked, "What did you do with that client? She walked out of the room totally different!" Indeed, the client had the feeling of a heavy dark cloud when she arrived. She left with a very evident calmness and lightness about her.

This happened back in the mid-1970's. Since I thought it was pretty cool, I asked some spiritual leaders about it. My Buddhist associates said, "It's only phenomena. Don't make it significant."

Some thought it was interesting. Others said they wished they could have those kind of experiences. Some mused at the story, and I stress "the story," as if it were made up. Needless to say, I stopped talking about it. I dismissed my experience. I didn't trust my knowing.

Not trusting I am an infinite all-knowing being. The journey to being all of me.

At that time there was little or no open discussions of such things. Why was this a guarded secret? Was it a myth? An illusion? Or, a lie?

It was very real to me. A merging of conscious awareness into the place where we are pure infinite beings. That place of Oneness.

Fifteen years later, as graduate divinity student in a liberal protestant Christian seminary, I mentioned I was a mystic. Yep. I became suspect by most of my classmates after that. But. but but, . . . Catholic literature is full of mystical writings of the saints. "Oops, that's it. I ain't a saint."

Inside, I felt one thing. Yet I lived my life by everybody else's ideas and judgments. Because I didn't have the sanction from the spiritual community, I didn't have the inner strength or conviction to claim and own what I experienced within let alone witnessed outside of me.

It was a constant frustration. "It's safer in this world to hide and to be just above average at best. Better not be your full greatness. Yes. Safer to go with the collective notions than buck the system."

Not trusting I am an infinite all-knowing being. The journey to being all of me.

At last, over time, I learned to trust my inner reality. I wasn't an airy-fairy flake. "Yes, I am that divine infinite being Yes!"

Until then, I did not reveal the full scope of my talents and abilities. I was unwilling to run the risk of stepping up. I was unwilling to show up as all of me.

I sold out. I gave into the outer world's beliefs and my fears. It all eroded into being unable to show up period. It became a series of false starts. Hiding my talents and abilities. Not honoring all that any one of us can be. Not honoring me.

I couldn't trust my inner knowing. I could only submit to social and institutional beliefs. Limiting beliefs at that!

I only allowed a shadow of me to exist. Merely surviving. Hiding. Walking between the cracks of the so called "real" world. The world that only pretends to like greatness, but really likes mediocrity.

The dilemma of ego personality. Embracing all of me to find the greatness of me.

My first spiritual teacher, a Tibetan Buddhist Rinpoche, told me to relax and be friends with my ego. He didn't say to get rid of it. He said to watch what it does and know its ways. Watch how it deceives and undermines you, Natasha!

Even though I learned to watch that self deception, I wasn't consistently honest with myself. Not always willing to just be okay with my negative thoughts and emotions. If I was angry or upset about a comment or outcome, I melted it away and became quiet and soft spoken. For I'm not a bad person.

Hey, it's okay to be quiet and soft spoken. That can be very powerful in balancing human encounters. It is not alright, though, if I am beating myself up for my internal response.

And, I undermined myself a lot. I hid out as normal and above average . . .and dishonored that greatness. Who would love a brilliant and super articulate woman? No one likes a co-worker who gets things done too fast and right the first time!

Finally one day I could say, "Yes, I am both."

I am an infinite all-knowing being.

And. . .I don't need to hide from my anger or resent or whatever. I don't have to be right all the time. I can be at ease with whatever I think or feel or say.

Yes, I am an infinite all-knowing being.

Ah! Now I can relax and be me. I don't have to prove or resist anything about me. I can be me without judgment. At least most of the time.

When I fall into old self-destructive patterns, I have effective ways to clear my limiting thoughts and emotions and feel better immediately. As long as I remember to use those tools.

At last, times are changing. Finally there is support in the world to be me! Today there are lots of influential people communicating universal truths. "What the Bleep" was an invite to a different interpretation of reality. If you saw "The Secret," that was only a shadow and simplistic introduction of what's possible. Even regular TV is echoing these kind of messages.

Yes! We create our own life. Yes! We contribute to the creation of all reality. Yes! We really are more than our physical body and personality. Yes! As infinite beings of consciousness, pure awareness, we are one!

Now is the time to set yourself free!

Things are definitely speeding up. More and more information and tools are being revealed to help change ourselves. To be the greatness we came here to be!

Whatever you are looking for in your life. . . all is inside you. And, I can assist you and give you some tools to use on your journey to choose the greatness you came here to be. Phone Coaching and a healing & transformation retreat residential intensive. Contact: BetheGreatnessofYou@mac.com.